Monday, June 2, 2008

God's Blessings

If you've read my previous posts you know that I lost my job a month ago. Being a single mom and sole support of my little family makes that a hard situation to be in. From the very beginning of this journey I knew, and kept telling myself, that God would provide for all our needs. In all my life and all the hard times I've never had to live on the street or gone hungry.

The past month has been hard in lots of ways. I'm a very independent and self-sufficient person. Almost to the point where I try to take control of what I should be letting God do. Sometimes I forget that He is even in the picture. It's very hard for me to ask for help. I was raised that you work hard and you take care of yourself. This past month has been a lesson in true humility for me. I've had to ask for help from many places, I've gone to the food bank to get food for us to eat, and I've not had much money. What I have had is total dependence on God's provisions - something that I should have had completely all along.

It took 3 weeks for my unemployment checks to start coming. I've gotten two checks so far and they fall very short of being enough to even meet half of my rent. I've had more online soap sales this past month than I've ever had - praise God! All those little bits of money have been so appreciated - they've helped to buy milk, bread, and put a little gas in my car. But the rent was due on June 1st. I've been praying for the last two weeks because I knew that I was going to be very short on my rent money.

Saturday was not a good day for me emotionally. All of this has come crashing down around my head. I had not lost faith in God's provisions but was having a hard time because I knew the rent was due the next day and I didn't see an answer. To not be able to have a place for my daughter and I to live is very scary for me. If my rent is not paid by the 3rd I will be served with an eviction notice.

Late this afternoon I went to get my mail. In there was an envelope from a dear friend. I wondered what she had sent me. When I opened the envelope there was a check for $700!!! I just sat and cried and cried. Praise God!!! He knew this was coming but was making me wait - another lesson learned! Now I'm able to pay my rent and will actually have some breathing room. I never doubted that God would provide but I was having a hard time waiting.

This is still going to be a long journey as I still don't have a job and no lead on any yet. I've sent out resumes but not a lot of responses. God does know the plans that He has for me and has reinforced to me again that I just need to be patient. I continue to wait.

Life is good! God is good!


Wendy said...

It can be a very difficult time when you know you need money and although we try to not let money rule our lives the world and everything in it revovles around it. I pray that the Lord will continue to Bless you over and beyond your wildest expectations!! Gob bless. Just remember "If God takes you to it HE will bring you through it"!! Be Blessed!~Wendy

mrsmorris said...

God is busy in your life in so many different ways. It is incredible to watch Him provide exactly what you need, exactly when you need it.

Praise God, from Whom all blessings flow;
Praise Him, all creatures here below;
Praise Him above, ye Heavenly Host;
Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost. Amen.

-Thomas Ken, 1674

Farm Chick Paula said...

Oh Kay, I'm so glad God made a way when there was no other way!!
You are truly an inspiration- thank you for sharing your stories!

Mrs. B, a very peculiar person said...

Thank you so much for sharing. It is so encouraging to hear how God is blessing His children.

Mrs. B

Darlene said...

Somehow I totally missed this post.

My prayers are with you, my friend.

StitchinByTheLake said...

I'm sorry that things are so difficult for you right now. You are so right that we have to try not to worry - God is in control. But worry is part of our human nature and a difficult thing to let go of. I have lifted you up in prayer today.

Irma's Rose Cottage said...

Hi Kay, so sorry to hear that you are going through a difficult time. Keeping you in prayer that everything comes out fine and that you find a job soon.

Irma :)

Michele said...

This post was very inspiring to read and a great reminder to put things in God's hands. I'm 100% disabled after an accident at the school where I taught 4th grade left me with a chronic pain condition. I finally was able to move into my own apartment, and during my first year living alone, I was served an eviction notice. The insurance company had changed, and they kept screwing up my checks. My Worker's Compensation check was a month late, and I had no money to pay my rent. It's a very scary situation. I can sympathize, though for you it must have been even scarier because you have a daughter.

Anyway, your friend sounds like a wonderful person. It was very kind of him to send you the money for rent. I'll keep you in my prayers that you find a job very soon.


Joanne Kennedy said...

God always takes care of those who are faithful.

I'm like you and have fallen on hard times. I'm on disability with a very small check coming in. Thankfully, God has blessed me with family that allows me to live with them.

I will keep you and your daughter in my daily prayers.

Your new job is around the corner I'm sure.

Remember, God never gives us more then we can handle.