Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Longing

Do you ever long for something? You want this something so badly that you can feel the longing deep in your soul? That's how I feel about having a farm. I don't mean a big farm but maybe somewhere from an acre to 5 acres. Just enough so that I could have chickens, a big garden, and a pumpkin patch.

When we were renting our home on 5 acres I had a pumpkin patch. It was one of my great joys to get up every morning to see how much the vines and pumpkins had grown overnight. Our first harvest we only had 13 pumpkins but they were wonderful! I miss that.

I long to be able to have that big garden so that I can put up food for winter. There is nothing better than looking in a pantry with rows of canning jars filled with all sorts of good treasures. In the middle of winter those canned peaches taste like heaven.

I long to get up early with my cup of coffee, go outside, and greet my Lord and the new day in the quiet of a country morning.

I know that at my age and in my financial situation (no job in sight) that I might not have a farm. Then I remember that nothing is too big for my God!! He tells us to ask. I have a hard time asking for something like a farm when there are so many other things and people that need prayer. My farm longing seems like it is a frivolous prayer. Yet it is a desire of my heart.

My prayers are a continuous conversation with God that even go into the early morning hours at times. I just hardly pray for myself - prayers for others seem more important. Do you find yourself having a hard time praying for yourself and your needs? Am I the only one that feels out of place praying for a longing of my heart when others are in such need??

15 comments:

Aunt Jenny said...

I know what you mean...I tend to pray for others and feel guilty if I ask for things in prayer too.
I feel so grateful for all I have, but I do have things I long for too.
It is finally feeling like fall here...and that feels good!!!
Have a great rest of the week Kay!!

Katy said...

Aw, I totally hear ya. Ours isn't quite a farm...but I call it one..LOL. We have over an acre..and have our chickens and dogs...but i want a goat too. LOL

I pray God will fulfill the desires of your heart Kay! xoxo

DonnaSews said...

God Bless You. Your blog is beautiful.

Theresa @ Take A Sentimental Journey said...

Well, we can all pray for you a farm ! If you lived closer I'd let you use my acres, it's just sitting here. We are trying to decide what to put on it.

Wanita said...

Yes, I know exactly what you mean about praying for yourself and about wanting some land. I'm thankful for our home and all we have, but sometimes I long for the country and to have some more land.

Becky said...

Good Morning Kay . . . i believe that god wants to hear the desires of your heart too!

i hope you receive the little farm, with chickens and pumpkins and peach trees! god wants us to be happy.

i hope you don't mind but i posted the photo from your blog of those luscious pumpkin spice soaps
so i could show my garden-blogging buddies
what you make.

~Becky
My Serenity Garden

Lea of Farmhouse Blessings said...

I do understand, Kay. Sometimes when you just can't pray for yourself, it helps to have the prayers of your sisters. I'll be praying for you this morning.

Don't give up on your dream. It was at the darkest financial time our life that we gained our small farm. Jeffrey had lost his job of 18 years. We lost our first home. At one point, we had all of our things in a moving van with no where to park it! And then the Lord just turned everything around and gave us the desires of our heart. It can happen! So be of good cheer and just keep learning and planning ... and one day you'll get to put all those dreams to good use!

Smiles,
Lea

Renna said...

God's Word says He gives us the desires of our heart. I've always been a little confused by that scripture. Does it mean He gives us the 'desires', meaning the desires we have are desires He placed there; or that He gives us the things that we desire (want). Maybe it's both?

I really do think that longing for a farm is a desire God placed within your heart. By joining your faith with His Word, I believe that some day you will receive that which you desire. Our Daddy loves to bless us just as we love blessing our own children.

I love your new fall look around here! :-)

Cathy said...

Just popping over to your blog but, wanted to share with you...

The bible teaches us that The Lord knows the desires of our hearts big or small!! I will be lifting you up in prayer!

Blessings! Cathy

Tapestry said...

You have a lovely site and I enjoy reading your posts. I agree that it's always hardest to ask the Lord to give something to you. It seems selfish I guess. It's always nice when friends ask for Blessings for you though so I'll wish you God's Blessings this and every day. :)

LINDA said...

Kay, I believe that all things are possible. If God didn't put the desire in hearts, nothing could be accomplished. I will pray for you. While we don't have a farm( but do desire one), we have a garden and the jars do line our pantry shelves. I have gardens full of flowers and birds and butterflies and frogs come to visit me. I'd love to have chickens and goats and maybe even a milk cow. I think it would be difficult to raise an animal for butchering but my Grandpa taught me how to milk....I think we should never give up on our dreams. People make their dreams come true every day. It can happen!

CathyJean said...

I also understand about your longing ~ it's very much like mine and the older I get the more I long for it...
I have a lot to be thankful for and I am grateful for all my blessings, but I really wish I could live a simpler life away from "city traffic and crowds of people".
Have a great weekend, Kay!

Darlene said...

God knows the desires of your heart and at the same time He knows what is best at this point in time. While you are waiting, HE is putting everything in order for you.

I constanting talk to our Heavenly Father as if He is standing right next to me. Believe me, my friend, He hears your every word.

Years ago I was having a casual conversation with our Lord and it evolved into what kind of dog would I want IF I ever got a dog. Eventualy it came down to a female chocolate lab.

Many years later, when I desperately needed a dog, a dumped female chocolate lab, completely trained and spayed, was literally thrown into my lap.

I have no doubt that your farm will be just the same....what an awesome Father we have!

Farm Chick Paula said...

Awww, I want you to have a farm too, sweetie, so I'll join with you in praying God will make a way... until then, you're welcome to come stay at my place any time!!

Mrs. B, a very peculiar person said...

My prayer for yoy ... Psalm 21:2, "Thou hast given him his heart's desire, and hast not withholden the request of his lips. Selah."

Mrs. B