Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Going Home


Sometimes we think that after we've prayed about a situation and some doors open, then we feel we know what God is trying to tell us or where He is leading us. That's how I felt about moving to Utah. I had prayed, made job contacts, had positive responses, had a place to live with friends, and felt this is where God was leading me. I sold or gave away everything. I only brought the things that would fit in my car.

I've been here almost 3 weeks, none of the job contacts have worked out, I've sent out 30 resumes with no responses, and we are homesick for WA. The job that I had lasted for one day and there were some issues that went against my moral standards. I decided not to go back.

I have been discouraged the last couple of days. Patience is not my virtue and I have such a hard time waiting on the Lord. This morning I laid in bed and just turned this whole thing over to God. I asked for His forgiveness for not trusting more, for trying to take control of this situation, and for being prideful about what kind of job I wanted. I told Him that whatever job He wanted me to have I would take. No matter what the pay, hours, or where it was. I let go of it all.

I got online and posted my resume on Craig's List in Salt Lake City and Vancouver. About two hours later I got a call from a lady in Vancouver who saw my resume on Craig's List. She wants to interview me on Monday at 10 AM. I've received 4 other contacts from companies in Vancouver regarding positions that they have open. These are more responses than I've received in the 3 weeks that I've been in Utah.

Don't get me wrong - it is beautiful here in Utah. The hot days, warm nights, and sunshine have been so appreciated. Steph and I are even getting a tan! Well, except for my legs - they never tan even when I wear shorts.

Tomorrow we are packing the car and Thursday morning at 8 AM we are heading back to WA. I truly do feel foolish that I've spent all the money to get here, uprooted my daughter, and on and on. But I also know that in every situation God is teaching us a lesson.

I have lived in WA for 23 years and for the last 9 years I have been discontented and wanted to move somewhere else. I whined and complained about the rain, the cost of living, and more. So I moved to Utah. God's lesson to me, and to Stephany, is that WA is our home. It's the only place that she's ever known. My family is there, my dear friends are there and soon we're going to be there.

I still don't know what God has in store for me. I don't have a home to go to now. I'll be staying in my daughter's apartment until her lease is up at the end of August. After that I have no idea where we'll live. I only have unemployment until the middle of November. All these uncertainties! But God is in control! I gave all of it up to Him this morning and am not taking it back. He is leading now and I am gladly following.

16 comments:

2 Much Farm Primitives said...

God IS in control. I've gone through some very disturbing issues with my last job and was forced to resign. One day you'll look back and see why all this took place. I'll keep you in my prayers.

Hugs,
Vic

Kelley said...

Kay, I am praying for you!
You are right God is in control...
He will lead you where you need to be!

CathyJean said...

Kay,
I'm still here praying for you!! Don't give up! Keep trusting the Lord. I'm the same way about no patience. There are good reasons why you've done all this moving around, even though it makes no sense now - it will later!
Hang in there!!
Hugz,
Cathy

Mrs. B, a very peculiar person said...

Kay,

I am also praying for you guys. Thumbs up for standing by your convictions in leaving that other job.
Let's look on the positive side of all this.
1. You are trusting in the Lord. You've been forced to hand it ALL over to Him.
2. What an incredible adventure! Can you imagine how fun and exciting your daughter's recollection of this adventure will be when she retells it to her own children someday?
3. You've had a wonderful break from the "same old, same old". You've been experiencing some terrific weather AND you even got to eat at Molly's Diner in Snowville, UT!
I am awestruck by your courage and your strength.
Looking forward to hearing, "the rest of the story".

Debra said...

I think you are about one of the bravest people I know! What a testimony that you gave Him the decision. I also admire your honesty. The truth is, we often really DON'T know His will, or maybe this side trip was part of His will. The important thing is your heart attitude. I'll be praying for your safety. Debra

hopefulheart77 said...

Sometimes the journey IS the lesson. It does not mean that it was not God's will for you to go to Utah just because you are moving back home. It is a piece of the picture. Most times we don't get the whole picture all at once. We trust the Lord that He has the whole picture and He will do what is best. Sometimes all we get to hear is left, now right, now straight. But we have a loving Father who sees the whole path. May God bless you in your journey. I am praying for you and thank you so much for sharing this adventure with us. I am looking forward very much to seeing what God does next in your life. He is training you for His kingdom and that is what really matters.

Lea of Farmhouse*Blessings said...

Kay, this is just another step in your journey. Don't feel foolish at all. Whatever reason you were in Utah ... and there was a purpose ... the Lord will use it to change you, mold you and give you a clearer picture of His plan for you.

Just keep looking up and know you have friends out here praying for you as you continue the journey before you.

Hugs,
Lea

Renna said...

You're on the right track. You've given it all to God.

Did you know in the bible where it talks about casting your burdens on to the Lord, that the word "cast" means to "fling". Literally, fling those burdens at the Lord! Don't pick them up again. Know that He is leading you each step of the way.

I will pray for you!

Cora from Nelia's Primitive Place said...

First of all, you are NOT a foolish person!!!!! Secondly, you have a very tender, sensitive heart, and God knows how much you want His best for your life. Thirdly, as someone else has stated, you needed this for all those wonderful reasons: --- if for nothing else than to say it cost you everything you had to eat at Molly's Diner!!!!!

I, too, have taken trips into what turned out to be a desert experience that "seemed" to not work out! But. . . . . . would you have EVER placed that ad on Craig's list from where you were before at this particular moment in time so that just the right employer would see it??????

God moves in mysterious ways His wonders to perform! And Kay, you are seeing the hand of God at work in your life. Don't be ashamed! Rather, lift up your voice and shout praises to God that HE is in control of what YOU can't control!

I'm prayin' ya all the way back to Vancouver!!!!!

Cora

Cora from Nelia's Primitive Place said...

First of all, you are NOT a foolish person!!!!! Secondly, you have a very tender, sensitive heart, and God knows how much you want His best for your life. Thirdly, as someone else has stated, you needed this for all those wonderful reasons: --- if for nothing else than to say it cost you everything you had to eat at Molly's Diner!!!!!

I, too, have taken trips into what turned out to be a desert experience that "seemed" to not work out! But. . . . . . would you have EVER placed that ad on Craig's list from where you were before at this particular moment in time so that just the right employer would see it??????

God moves in mysterious ways His wonders to perform! And Kay, you are seeing the hand of God at work in your life. Don't be ashamed! Rather, lift up your voice and shout praises to God that HE is in control of what YOU can't control!

I'm prayin' ya all the way back to Vancouver!!!!!

Cora

Flower said...

Keep us posted as you follow the path before you. I would hate to leave Wa too. It's an easy place to live. It sounds like you have some good job leads and all it takes is one good match! I will be praying for you and your daughter.

Aunt Jenny said...

Oh Kay..I feel so bad that you had to go through this..but like so many others said...there is a reason for it all...just not one that you can see yet. I still hope I get to see you before you leave Utah! Call me!!
I will sure keep you guys in my prayers.

Laura of Harvest Lane said...

I am so proud of you. You can absolutely trust God in this.

Blessings!
Laura of Harvest Lane

Farm Chick Paula said...

Oh, Kay... I'm sorry for all your having to go through right now, but there is a reason.... and I believe things will get better for you soon!

Darlene said...

It's Friday, 6:15 pm

WELCOME HOME :)

LINDA said...

Oh, Sweetie, things have a way of working out. You are not alone. God is on your side and you have all of us to pray for you. You are so brave and strong. You will keep moving forward and I know you will come out on top.